Friday, December 30, 2011

Friday Photo

I have not posted a Friday Photo in a while! I chose this photo because I absolutely adore this painting! I love the colors and the abstractness of it. Somehow color chaos can be artful and I love that. I also love how the painting is hung close to the dresser instead of higher up on the wall. It just pulls everything in tighter to give it a clean finish. I love this look! May your Friday be full of color and life today!

Monday, December 12, 2011

Music Monday: "Here Begin"

"The music of this album is an unmasked look at the longings of the human heart for beauty, for truth, for safety and love."

I haven't done a music recommendation in a while, but here is something that deserves recognition. Andrea Marie's first solo album titled "Here Begin" is an amazing piece of art. If you love the indie sound as much as I do and music that makes you feel then you might want to check this album out. Andrea is part of a larger community of musicians, including United Pursuit Band ( I can't get over her beautiful melodies and piano arrangements! Genius! 

 I have had this album on repeat since I got it. Just listening to every lyric of every song, soaking it in. Going to itunes and taking a listen will be worth your while!

check out the teaser video! All shot with a Cannon 5D....oh the possiblities ;)

I had to share, enjoy! :)

Friday, December 9, 2011

The "In-Between" Place

Transition. I love it, I hate it. Leaving behind something old, pressing on towards something...different. I am in the "in-between" place. I have left the old and I am not yet fully walking in the new. This place is hard. Sometimes I refer to it as the desert. The place in between Egypt and the promised land. It's hard to find the words to articulate. From the outside my life is mundane but on the inside so much is happening. Here is the truth: Your spiritual training process is designed to develop the muscles you will need to sustain the weight of your destiny. 

"Lord give me a heart that You can trust!" I prayed that prayer and I have my moments when I don't like the answer! Sometimes I feel like I have asked Him to get out of difficult situations and He reminds me I prayed this. I am learning He needs people He can put into difficult situations and trust us not to leave before it's time. I believe faithfulness is considered by Heaven to be one of the most beautiful qualities a person can posses. But how can we be found faithful if we leave everything He's called us to because it's hard?  

The difficulty of the season is in direct proportion to the mountain top you will stand on in the promised land. Don't despise the process. First He will show you, then He will grow you. The growing is the hard part because when He builds us sometimes it feels like He tears us apart, but the tearing is really Him depositing strength in us.

I have had a reoccurring dream lately that I'm in a grocery store filling up my cart with things off the shelf. If you are into dream interpretation (which I am, John Paul Jackson is an excellent teacher on biblical dream interpretation) Typically grocery stores mean getting what you need, they symbolize a place of preparation (as do kitchens). There is a process of preparation that has to occur in the "in-between" place. The place in between receiving a word from Him about where you are going to end up but still having to be faithful where you are. The "in-between" place is called the place of preparation, and that place can be difficult but it is oh so necessary! It will dismantle the pride that would have taken you out in the future. Don't despise the process of preparation! Let us be found faithful in that place.  

One verse that keeps coming to mind is Matthew 9:17:
"Nor do people put new wine into old wineskins; otherwise the wineskins burst, and the wine pours out and the wineskins are ruined; but they put new wine into fresh wineskins, and both are preserved.”

When I apply this to my own life I am the wineskin and the wine His presence. The season of preparation is actually making me into a new wineskin, because my old self could not carry the wright of the new revelation He wants to show me.

Something I love doing is reading biographies of people who I admire or want to aspire to be like. And something they all pretty much have in common is agreeing that if they didn't serve and obey in the obscure mundane seasons, the seasons that looked like the opposite of what God had spoken to them, then they would have never fulfilled their calling. How we hold our hearts in the difficult mundane seasons will determine what will come into our hands in the future seasons. 

I think of David and Moses often. Both had seasons of being faithful in the mundane. Moses in the desert watching his father-in law's sheep and David in the desert watching his father's sheep. The Lord saw them there while they were just doing what they had done everyday. The Lord came and got them where they were! They didn't have to do anything they just kept being faithful in the everyday tasks of life and the Lord came and called them out Himself.
1 Samuel 16:13 says David was anointed "in the midst of his brothers". If you are faithful in private you will be displayed in public. (obviously to be seen publicaly shouldn't be our motive to be faithful- but that's a whole other post!)

Let there be no more "NO" in my heart towards Him, but just one big resounding "YES!"
Whatever you want me to do, I will...even if it's mundane at times, because YOU are my destiny, the destination is not.

Monday, October 31, 2011

Mystery #Philwickham

My husband and I volunteered at a BASIC conference ( this past weekend and got to hang out a little bit with Phil Wickham and his manager. As my friend put it so well in her blog ( it's amazing when "people turn out to be as awesome as you hoped." Anyways, I was impressed. Sometimes you can't tell if people are in that business for themselves or for God, but I don't wonder about Phil... He was humble, and stuck around to worship with us Friday night and stayed well beyond the message was over, even though he was probably tired from travel and could have just crashed in his hotel rm. I was impressed- he acted like a normal person, not like a rock star. Refreshing!

got to help set up his merch table!
His worship set was just him and his guitar (my fav way to worship- "unplugged") and I pretty much cried through the whole thing (yeh I know, the crying thing is turning into a common theme in my life) but I just felt the beauty of His presence SO just broke me down lol. Anyways, Phil is the real deal and since then I have been listening to the lyrics of his songs a lot more closely and they are excellent! The lyrics in this song in particular really resonate with the cry of my heart.   

Here in the Quiet speak to me now
My ears are open to
Your gentle sweet whispering
Break down the door, come inside
Shine down Your bright light
I need a lamp for my feet, I need a lamp for my feet

I want to hear the thunder of who You are
To be captured inside the wonder of who You are
I want to live I want to breathe
To search out Your heart and all of Your mysteries

You were the first and You’ll be the end
Time cannot hold You down
Why save a wretch like me?
No eye has seen, no ear has heard
No heart could fully know
All of Your mystery

Your glory burns in the stars
Shine down your light let it burn in my heart
Bring me to glory, bring me to you
Lord it’s your heart that I will hold onto

Your glory burns in the stars
Shine down Your light let me know who You are
Jesus, Your glory burns in the stars
Shine down Your light, let me see You, let me see You

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Things married's should never say to single's & vice versa

ok I read this blog and I thought it was excellent and all around just good advice. It's about what marrieds should not say to their single friends and what single's should not say to their married friends. confession: *this is NOT my writing* I can't say it any better than this so I'm not going to try. The link to the actual blogs are here: &

1. Please don’t tell us that as soon as we become “content” being single, we’ll meet “the one.” It sounds nice, and I get the point, but I know plenty of people who have gotten married before achieving perfect contentedness with single life. Not to mention, I’ve been content being single for awhile now – and I’m starting to wonder if it isn’t precisely this attitude which sometimes keeps us stuck.
2. Please don’t stop inviting us just because we’re single. We get it. You’re “married” now or whatever. But you’re still you. And we still want to be friends. Fifth wheel. Ninth wheel. 301st wheel. Whatever. We’re used to it. Just invite us to come.
3. Please don’t tell us how “easy” we have it being single. There might be some truth to that statement, but you know what? We get this a lot. And don’t forget that when life gets rough you have someone to share the load with you. Remember to be grateful for that.
4. Please don’t act like, since you’re married, you have it all figured out. Especially if you never dated much before you found your husband. Especially if the last time you dated, your age ended in “teen” (thank you, Shannon). Yes, your story is a beautiful story, and we love to hear you tell it. But we are living out our own beautiful story, and it’s okay that it doesn’t look like yours.
5. Please don’t assume that we’ll sleep on the couch. It’s Christmas or Thanksgiving and there are a dozen people staying at the same house, and yeah, we get it. You need the bed more than we do (go ahead and rub it in). If you ask us, we’ll let you have it. But don’t just assume. It’s humiliating.
6. Please don’t stop accepting our invites (and be willing to come alone). I mean, we don’t expect you to have a girls’ night every night. Your Friday night plans with your spouse are likely more fun. But just because you’re married doesn’t mean you can’t do anything without your wife/husband… right?
7. Please don’t set us up on dates without asking. I mean, set us up. We need you for that. But don’t do it without asking. Without veto power you’re setting us (both) up for a really awkward and unnecessary rejection.
8. Please don’t lie to us about what it is like to be married. Don’t be all like, “Marriage is peaches and cream” when you’ve spent all week fighting with your husband, and don’t say, “Oh, marriage isn’t really that cool anyway… you’re not really missing anything.” We need the inside scoop and you’re the one who can give it to us – the good, the bad and the ugly.
9. Please don’t tell us that if only we did/said/wore/ [fill-in-the-blank] then we’d be sure to find a husband. You’re over-simplifying and you’re asking us to be someone we’re not.  More often than not, we’ll probably do the thing you told us to do and end up attracting someone who doesn’t fit with us at all.
10. Please don’t tell us that we must have something else that “God wants to teach us” before we can get married. Marriage is not the prize you earn when you learn everything God has to teach you. I’m sure God has more that he wants to teach me. And he probably has some things he still wants to teach you, too.
11. Please don’t ask us why we are still single. Like we have an answer to that question. And if we did, we’d probably be working through whatever it was, so we could join the ranks of married folks like you.
12. Please don’t make it your life’s mission to find us a wife or husband. I mean, we get it. You want us to be happy – blah, blah, blah. But make sure you let us know you love us just as we are, even without a wife or a husband.
13. Please don’t act like the single life is some sort of JV team. Especially when you’re ten years younger than we are. Share your advice, but listen to ours. Don’t make life all about marital status, because it isn’t. We have wisdom and perspective to offer too. It’s just different wisdom than yours.
14. Please don’t respond to our break-up by telling us, “He wasn’t worth it anyway…” We know what you mean but it makes it sound like we just flushed a good chunk of our lives down the toilet. Relationships are never a waste, as long as we learn from them.
15. Please don’t give us advice like, “No man is worth your tears and the only man who is won’t ever make you cry…” You sound like a Hallmark card and plus, it makes it sound like the pain of relationships stops after marriage. And you’re married, for heaven’s sake. You should know better!

1. Don’t assume that the grass is greener on the other side.
Okay, I admit I may be making some assumptions here myself. Not all single people assume marriage is better than singleness. I get that. For those who might, however, realize that married life is just as complicated and tricky as the rest of life.

2. Don’t stop inviting your married friends to stuff you’re doing.

Married people still like to go to dinner, movies, ball games, wine tastings, and parties. Don’t count us out just because we’re married. It hurts our feelings. {Sniffle}

3. Don’t stop accepting invitations from your married friends.

Just because someone you know went and got wed doesn’t mean you can’t still hang out together. They’re still the same person and so are you…so go kick it.

4. Don’t rub your singleness in our noses.

“Ooh, being single is the best. So much freedom. I can do whatever I want, whenever I want…” Yadda, yadda, yadda. We get it. Being single rocks, but so does being married. Both have their benefits. Don’t flaunt.

5. Don’t ignore the fact that we are married–meaning, ask us about our marriages.

After all, they are a big, huge part of our lives. Please don’t pretend that they don’t exist. If we keep blabbing on and on about married life to an annoying degree, though, tell us.

6. Don’t assume the only thing we have to talk about is our spouse.

Sure, married folks should like to talk about their spouse, but we certainly have other interesting things to talk about. Just ask.

7. Don’t waste your singleness.

Okay, so this isn’t what you do to us, per se, but it’s still a single no-no. The apostle Paul was in favor of believers staying single. He personally saw singleness as a more opportune lifestyle. Why? Because you can do so much for God’s Kingdom without the responsibility that comes with marriage. Use your singleness to impact the Kingdom.

8. Don’t say, “If only I were married…”

Granted, not all single people wish to be married, but for those who think life starts at “I do,” here’s news: it don’t. Life starts now. Don’t wait until you’re married to achieve your goals.

9. Don’t place singleness–or married life, for that matter–on a pedestal.

Enjoy where you are now. Like I said, both have their upsides. Be content.

10. Don’t feel like a third wheel.

Married people aren’t sitting around thinking, “Ugh…(s)he is such a third wheel,” so you shouldn’t either.

11. If you are a single guy/girl who is friends with a chick/dude who gets married, don’t assume your friendship won’t change.

It will. Sorry.

12. Don’t be afraid of kids.
Sometimes married people go off and make babies. It has been known to happen. Kids are the byproduct of marriage. They shouldn’t, however, be a deterrent to you seeing your married peeps. It may even be good practice for your future. *ahem* Can anyone say “diaper change”?

13. Don’t be afraid to ask for advice.

Just because you are single and your friend is married doesn’t mean they can’t give great single advice. They were single once, too, ya know.

14. Don’t be afraid to give advice.

This is a biggie. Never feel like you being single in any way prevents you from sharing wisdom, advice, or counsel with a married person.

15. Never be afraid to tell your married friends to quit playing matchmaker.

I’ll be the first to admit that far too many married people like to meddle in the love lives of single people. We think we know “the perfect guy/girl for you” about 15 times over. Us married folks can be nosy, bossy, and pushy when it comes to matchmaking. If this happens, promptly tell them to put a cork in it. It’s good for us and better for you.

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Pumpkin spice and everything...Autumn

I turn up the volume of one of my favorite indie CD's and go over to the window. I pull back the roman blind as far as it will go so that the sun comes spilling into the room, making it warm. When the wind blows I can see some of the different colored leaves falling to the now browning grass. I pull over a bean bag and a fuzzy blanket and fall asleep there..happy.  


Summer is not my favorite season and by reading this blog I don't have to tell you which one is.  As it gets colder I get to start putting back tons of blankets on my bed! I love being buried under heavy comforters. Getting lost in a book cozy in bed while the wind blows outside. There aint nothin else like it :)

I never tire of pulling out my sweaters I store in totes under my bed during the summer.  Boots, scarfs, and sweaters, are just "my style" and I get very happy
knowing I can wear them outside in the crisp air. The something I LOVE about fall. There is no other air like it for the rest of the year. I have been to the west and I hate their seasons...because they don't have any.

Our fire place mantle is never lacking in fall decor. I love fall decorations of all kinds! They just make me feel cozy. And of course, I light every fall scented candle known to man..but muled cider is my favorite. Sipping tea on the carpeted floor while reading a magizine to the smell of cookies in the oven, one of my favorite things ever. Knowing that my warm fuzzy socks are coming out the dryer and I can put them on any minute! Starring into the flames of the fireplace knowing I don't have to be anywhere that night...delicious.
Pumpkin pie? yes please. Apple cider? yes please. whole made apple everything and anything, YES!

and please don't forget the pumpkin spice latte! It would not be fall without it.


Here is to my favorite time the year, FALL!!!

Monday, September 12, 2011

Invisible Empires

Oh great. It happened AGAIN. How do her songs seem to articulate exactly what's going on inside me? every time.... Her music never fails to have that effect on me. Sara Grove's new album "Invisible Empires" comes out this October but you can pre-download it from her site ( so I did. I heard this one song and just started crying...again...... great. lol I would really like to listen to at least one of her albums without crying through it but it hasn't happened yet. 
As I was trying to overcome an offended heart today this song just took the words right. out. of. me.

"Open My Hands"

I believe in a blessing I don't understand
   I've seen rain fall on the wicked and the just
but rain is no measure of His faithfulness 
He withholds no good thing from us

I believe in a peace that flows deeper than pain
the broken find healing in love
pain is no measure of His faithfulness
He withholds no good thing from us
I will open my hands, open my heart
I am nodding an emphatic YES to ALL You have for me!!

I believe in a fountain that will never run dry
though I've thirsted and didn't have enough
but thirst is no measure of His faithfulness 
He withholds no good thing from us

Monday, September 5, 2011

Mainly About Maine

Some snap shots from our recent trip to Maine :)

We hit the beach with "Lou", my skim board.
Bubble Tea in Portland
We ate seafood until we couldn't take it anymore.
We made our way up to Bar Harbor and eventually spent a few days in Acadia National Park. One of my favorite places in the U.S.
More Acadia Magic. The bottom left hand picture is the sunrise we saw from the top of Cadillac Mountain. It was worth getting up at an ungodly hour and freezing my butt off for. We also got to explore some remote islands, go on an ocean boat ride, hang out with some lobster fisherman (and a park ranger), and ate the BEST seafood. With all that said I don't want to go back to work tomorrow ;)

Monday, August 15, 2011

A Certain Rain in the Morning

"when everything in me is tightening curling in around this ache
I will lay my heart wide open

like the surface of a lake"
"from this one place I can't see very far
in this one moment I'm square in the dark

these are the things I will trust in my heart
you can see something else
something else"

This morning I listened to my good ol' friend Sara Groves. It was rainy outside, I cried. Obviously not because it was raining but because those lyrics articulated something I could not about what's happening in that place I call my heart. Her lyrics have been known to have that effect on me, and every time, I'm caught off guard.

Let me just say this: there is nothing more painful than living in community, and there is nothing more beautiful than living in community. We need each other but sometimes we hurt each other. Church people are still just people. Like so many when I get hurt I automatically never want to put myself out there again...but there is just as much pain in self preservation and isolation as there is when you make yourself vulnerable again. Living in community teaches me the real meaning of forgiveness. Let's be honest, sometimes I just don't want to keep forgiving.  Once is more than enough for me, but if we want to live in true community then we need to learn how to forgive over and over and over again. That does not mean being walked on but it does mean loving even to your own hurt, and Jesus loves us this way.

So Sara puts it best. I'm struggling to stay open, everything inside me curling in around this pain...I'm trying to stay open, wide open like a lake.

Has the Lord ever given you a crystal clear promise and then down the road you seem to be in exactly the opposite of what He told you would happen? Those are the times I would rather walk by sight instead of faith...but those are the times when I need to walk by faith the most. The only thing I can do is trust that He sees something else from this place when all I see is rubble and dust. From this one place I'm square in the dark. I can feel the testing of the word He gave, the pressure of His hand, the fire of the kiln...challenging me to completely love, completely trust, completely love....and then do it all over again. If we can overcome the offense of our challenges we will see that He will use it to teach us how to love better. How to walk in True Courage.

So crush me until I am a sweet fragrance.
Bring the rain until I am tried, and when it's over, let my face reflect the sky.   

Sunday, July 10, 2011

That's The Stuff

I stretched out my right arm letting the wind whip past my ears and comb my hair. The down hill grade was steep but I did not brake. The water to my left, the sun in my eyes, my heart exploding. Under my breath I whispered, "that's the stuff." You can think that's cheesy but I really said it out loud. In that moment my mind was racing with what really makes me genuinely happy. My mom's hugs, my husband's beautiful eyes, fire flies at night, wide open country spaces, bike rides by myself, feeling free...and an overwhelming feeling not to take those small things in my life for granted. I am thankful for those "small" things that FILL up my life.

Mimi's back porch, sitting on the swing drinking lemonade and eating a whole made half moon cookie...that's the stuff....

Canoeing, sitting in the lush grass, eating veggies straight from the garden....that's the stuff....

The other night a friend came over. We spontaneously decided to paint. Micheal's was closing in 10 minutes and we decided neither of us would spend over $10. So we sprinted down the aisles and we got all our paints, brushes, and canvases for just under that price. I made tea, light tea lights in mason jars around my back porch, and we painted...and my hands were covered in it...and I felt free....


and we made a mess... :)

This is the stuff that fills my heart and makes it HAPPY.

I have known loss but I also know joy. Call me simple I don't care. We all need to not take little things for granted and nourish the relationships in our lives. If we don't then at the end of it all we will wish we had. It's not the material things in my life that fill my heart over flowing to the brim with happiness, it's the relationships I have. The the things that this world somtimes deems "insignificant" is the very stuff that makes me not only joyful but HAPPY :)

Friday, July 1, 2011

Friday Photo

This picture is so fitting. I LOVE fruit in the summer time!  

Wednesday, June 29, 2011


By Josh Garrels

Had a dream I was alone
A vast expanse of complete unknown
Sea of glass so clear it shown,
Like gold
Then a voice like thunder clapped,
As a dead man I collapsed
I am the first, I am the last,
Now rise my son

Then behold ten thousand kings,
and every creature worshipping
Every eye was on one thing,
One man
He's like a lion like a lamb,
As though slain he holds the plan
To make war and peace with man,
And reign on earth

Holy, Holy, is the One,
Who was and is, and is to come
In a robe as red as blood,
He comes forth
Ride like lightening in the sky,
Upon the war horse he draws nigh,
The same one we crucified,
Will come again

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Thursday, June 16, 2011

Friday Photo

I woulnd't mind hanging out here for a day or two ;) and yes, there really is a tree inside this room.
Check out more decorating ideas like this at:
you can get lost at that site :)

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Boxes aren't for me.

I wasn’t made to fit in any man’s box. I think that’s why I feel like my heart is suffocated when I try to. The pain of watering down my dreams is more painful than being judged for dreaming them and the pain of not dreaming them at all is greater than the pain of dreaming dreams and not having them come to pass. Although both pains are great.  My body aches from trying to fit into man’s mold…I think that’s because I was never fashioned to fit it. The more I grow the more I hate the status quo. I woke up this morning- my head full of possibilities. I just have to run deeper, I can’t camp out and stay where I’ve been… I don’t want to and even if no one runs with me I’ll go anyways because even if no one else comes that is no excuse not to go at all.  

I listened to Brooke Fraser this moring, ate some blueberries, watered my flowers, and was thankful for the future. I am realizing there are deeper levels of freedom than I origanlly thought...and it tates so sweet.

Sunday, June 5, 2011

Marriage, Dating, & Westside Story

Last night my husband and I went out to dinner and he surprised with tickets to Westside Story. Without gushing too much I'll just say he is the BEST...ever. It was litteraly a perfect date night which doesn't happen a lot let's be honest! ;)

Keep dating after you get married!!! That is so important :)

For great and fairly cheap date night ideas check out

:) love you all!

Thursday, June 2, 2011


I made this last night and it was so good! So I thought I would share. It's SO easy and it's a great side dish for the summer time!

  • 8  oz. Strawberries
  • 8  oz. shell pasta, cooked, rinsed and cooled
  • 8  oz. fresh mozzarella balls, drained
  • 1/4 cup slivered fresh basil
  • 1/4 cup slivered red onion
  • 1/4 cup balsamic vinaigrette 
  1. Rinse, hull and quarter strawberries.  
  2. Combine strawberries, pasta, mozzarella, basil and onion in a large bowl. (Can be prepared to this point and refrigerated until ready to serve.)  
  3. Drizzle with vinaigrette and mix gently until ingredients are well coated.
    I LOVE summer! :)

    Saturday, May 14, 2011

    Being a Woman at Rest

    Long story short, I typed this post the other night and lost the entire thing. So I'm not retyping the whole thing, I'm just going to pull the main points. 

    What does it mean to be a woman at rest? I'm not talking about relaxing, I'm talking about resting. Letting your spirit enter into a place of rest (Hebrews 4). Resting does not mean not doing anything, we can be busy in the natural but on the inside we are resting. If you are resting you will probably not burn out, if you enter into rest then Isaiah 40:31 is possible. What helps us to be women at rest?

    1.) Try never to compare yourself with any other. Comparison is death to self and death to calling. We will never be who we were meant to be if we are always comparing ourselves to others. Not to mention, we have enough insecurities we don't need to add fuel to that fire! Notice I say try because this is not easy, however it is possible, and not only is it possible but it is necessary if we are to fulfill the personal destiny God has for us. 

    2.) A woman at rest is a woman in action. A woman at rest is a woman at war, taking every thought deliberately captive that tears her down (2 Cor 10:5). 

    3.) Trust. A woman at rest is a woman who trusts in the Lord with all her heart and leans not on her own understanding (Proverbs 3:5). She is child like, she receives a spirit of adoption instead of rejection, and she let's go, knowing she is not in control.

    4.) A woman at rest makes peace with herself. She learns to be at peace with her body and her personality.  She does not compare, she gives herself grace, and she allows herself to become the object of her Father's overwhelming love and affection.

    Why is rest so important? Psalm 23:5 states that God prepares us a table in the presence of our enemies. Rest, or peace, is one of the strongest weapons we have because it overthrows fear. Fear is from the enemy and renders us ineffective, powerless, in our Christian walk. Rest has the adverse effect on us, it empowers us and allows to operate with a sound mind (2 Timothy 1:7).

    Peace is Powerful, and it looks good on us. I have met some women who are at rest and they are confident and powerful women. They are attractive, people like to be in their presence. I'm not saying that any of these things are easy to walk out in our lives and it's certainly a challenge for me to to do these things in my own life but that doesn't mean the principals aren't true and effective. I need freedom from fear, most all of us do. If you deeply struggle with fear and anxiety at times like I do just know that the Lord can shepard our hearts into a rest that runs even deeper than our greatest fear. 

    2 Timothy 1:7
    For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.

    1 John 4:18
    There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love.

    Tuesday, April 26, 2011

    Yep I'm still thinking about it...

    Here is a really good run down of the event with pictures. Pastor John posted this blog on the Redeemer church's website. To view go to:     

    After Furious Love

    Our Furious Love Event is over. The God-event continues. Many of us are finding it difficult to talk about it, especially after Saturday evening. Here are some photos, with some commentary.
    Greg Boyd
    Greg Boyd spoke two times, contrasting a “Blueprint View” if the world with a “Warfare Worldview.” I find his teaching and preaching brilliant and compelling. Many were stunned at the clarity and insights God brought to us through Greg. When Greg was with us at Redeemer a few years ago we had dinner at our home and watched “Napolean Dynamite” together. What if Napolean Dynamite got saved and was brilliant and Spirit-filled? That’s Greg. You can find his writings on the Warfare Worldview here and here.
    Greg played drums on our worship team Thursday evening. He is an excellent drummer! I played electric guitar. It was an empowering worship experience. 650 people were maxing out our sanctuary. Heidi Baker spoke that evening. She was coming to us directly from Mozambique. One of her flights was cancelled. I picked up her husband Rolland from the hotel and he was texting her trying to work out the flight details. We began our worship time later so that Heidi could be there to be part of it. I often play guitar with my eyes closed. I opened them at one point and Heidi was on her knees passionately worshiping. For me this was very moving. Holly Benner, our phenomenal worship leader, was God-led, taking us deep into His holy presence.
    Heidi came forward. She got on her knees on the platform and continued worshiping, leading us in what became a beautifully haunting a capella singing. The sound crew later played this exprience back to me. We were trying to decide if we heard a violin section appearing out of nowhere accompanying the praise.
    Then Heidi preached.
    I don’t know how to write about this right now…
    Darren Wilson (producer of “Finger of God” and “Furious Love,” as well as his new book Filming God) led a panel discussion which was transparent, real, vulnerable, and endeared us to all the speakers.
    Left to right – Darren Wilson, Robbie Dawkins, Phillip Mantofa, Will Hart,
    Shampa Rice, Mattheus van der Steen, Rolland Baker,
    Greg Boyd, Angela Greenig, Rebecca van der Steen
    Angela Greenig taught on deliverance and led a session that no one will ever forget.
    Greg Boyd, Angela Greenig, Rebecca van der Steen
    Shampa Rice opened Furious Love up on Wednesday evening with an incredible message on the love of God. Linda and I wish Shampa and her husband Jonathan were closer to Monroe! As a little girl growing up in Calcutta Shampa lived across from Mother Teresa. She would go and hug Mother Teresa’s legs. Shampa did a second session and shared about her being abused as a child. It was yet another session no one will ever forget.
    Josh Bentley, Mattheus van der Steen, Phillip Mantofa,
    and Shampa Rice
    Mattheus van der Steen trained under Brother Andrew (of God’s Smuggler). Mattheus is from the Netherlands. He spoke on Thursday evening and gave yet another unforgettable message accompanied by God’s power. And, he gave what may be the funniest sermon illustration (out of his personal life) that I have ever heard.
    Mattheus van der Steen
    We had people from around the U.S. and world with us. One newly married couple chose to celebrate their honeymoon at Furious Love. Here is Will Hart (from Randy Clark’s ministry) blessing them.
    Will Hart
    I am so thankful Robbie Dawkins (Vineyard pastor in Chicago) was with us. I got to spend some time with him and his wonderful wife Angie. Robbie spoke twice, and gave the perfect, God-anointed message at Redeemer on Sunday morning.
    Robbie Dawkins and me
    I am so proud of the 100+ Redeemer servants who served like crazy worker bees throughout the entire event. Thanks to Josh Bentley who did a phenomenal job coordinating this. I heard many compliments about the hospitality that was lovingly served up to all. Here are a few of them.
    Saturday evening. Phillip Mantofa from Indonesia spoke on “Read the Bible.” Linda said this evening was one of the three or four most significant evenings in all her life. Most of us cannot talk about it now. Words will not do it justice. God came. I’m feeling emotional as I write this. Something happened. Many of us think it was important in a way that goes beyond us. All of the speakers felt the same. It was different. It felt different. We shall see.
    Phillip Mantofa

    Saturday, April 23, 2011

    A Most Furious Love...

    I could tell you about the night when Will preached his heart out so passionately that people rushed the stage before the message was even over without an alter call ...or about the time I wanted to crawl underneath my chair out of fear because I knew that I AM was in the room...or about the crippled girl that was layed out on the couch that was totally and completely healed and ran onstage to tell her testimony of the love of God, her heart of gratitude so evident. Or that every night on the way back to the hotel we blasted Michael Ketterer's song "Wild one" which include the lyrics "I got a gun Lord, I keep it locked and loaded, lovin is my ammunition!" haha our theme song for the week ;)

    Or when I got the biggest five minute bear hug from an Indian saint named Shampa...or when me and my friends got "pounced" on by Rolland Baker and laughed for what seemed like hours.... he is affectionately known as "Tigger". Or when Angela drew her sword and screamed "Let's Make War!!!" and I almost got hit in the eyeball by a mini green plastic soliderman...doesn't make sense? that's ok. Or when Rebecca looked into my eyes and saw ME, not just my face, and spoke the truth into me.

    Or about the night when Philip imparted...and I met the REAL Jesus again...not the religion but the man...the most humble man....the one I had first met....
    and in a ball of tears, snot, mascara streamed cheeks, and messy hair, He brushed off my heart and whispered only the way He can "There you are... I've missed you..."
    and yes I felt alive...and real again...

    But some moments are mine to keep.
    For me, there is only one way to live, and that's in Him. There is only one way to love and that's through Him.
    "People come and go saying  I can't love that way, when I hear their lies this is what I say, WATCH ME."

    Saturday, April 16, 2011

    The Furious Love Event Part 1?

    I don't really know what to say or what to write about this event...all my words will prove to be insufficient. In the next few months of my life (and in the next few posts) I will begin to unpack this thing I experienced called "The Furious Love Event". 
    All I know is that three girls that are self proclaimed "wild ones for Jesus" will never be the same...

    "The Event was a trauma to the system of comfortable Christianity and a world of excuses."
    -Darren Wilson (Director of "The Finger of God" and "Furious Love")
    To read more about the event check out Darren's blog (it's great!), he says it so much better than me :)

    SO much more to say but not sure how to say it....
    more to come soon :)

    Monday, April 4, 2011

    It's about time...

    for an adventure!!!! Or maybe more of an event. A few friends and I will be road trippin it out of state tomorrow to attend the Furious Love Event. It's going to be EPIC. Stay tuned for more details....

    Friday, March 18, 2011

    Friday Photo

    Clark Little is a surfer turned photogrpaher based out of Hawaii. Some of his still shots of waves are stunning!
    I personally love pictures of waves. Scan some shots on his site- you won't be sorry!
    I'm definitly in the mood for warmer weather right about now so this photo is fitting! Happy Friday! :)

    Wednesday, March 16, 2011

    Girls with Cameras are LEGIT.

     Really into pictures of people holding cameras lately! Don't ask why- I don't's just FUN! :) 

    Let me introduce you to a girl with a camera who is legit. Dana is a close friend, if you haven't checked out her photography then I assure you, you are missing out! http://www.danachristinephotography.comShe is also a great writer!